Sleepless Night...
Sunday, August 5, 2007 @ at
Didn't sleep well last night. Or should I say this morning? I went to bed at near to 6am earlier on. Woken up by Dearie's call... How come I slept so "early"? Well, didn't feel sleepy and was upset with something that I probably shouldn't be upset with anymore.
Nothing is wrong between me and him. We are perfectly fine... laughing and smiling and playing away with one another in our games, outings, etc. Yes, I am a happy and blessed girl. I am being loved and in love with someone whom I want to spend all my time with, never want to let him out of my sight etc. Dearie and me are perfectly fine... even though at times, we have our little tiffs or disagreement with one another, we always make things go through. Nothing to worry between us. :)
What made me upset was learning and knowing how much a person could changed. Things that this person would never do in the past, he is doing it now. Turning into a womanizer? Someone who does not know how to think? I know it has been hurtful to him... When was it not to me when things happened? I was deeply hurt and upset before. Knowing that he has become in that state made me upset. Very very upset... I want to help... But I was turned away. I told Dearie what I was upset over. He tried to make me cheer up... I did try not to think about it further. Watched DVDs the whole night. Somehow it just pricked and remained somewhere in my mind. I was still thinking of it. Very hard to push it out and ignore... haiz...
I know it was all in the past. No one is to be blamed for what had happened. I have moved on and everyone should. No point to get upset already. If you think you have gone through the worse... look around you. Some are even much worse off than you. Everyone of us has our little dark secrets that we would want to hide in that skeleton closet. I also have mine. If you know what I have gone through during the emotionally sad times... would you still do what you have done?
