Went out last nite with Fiona, Chuanwei and Collin. Jayne was supposed to join us and we wanted to head to Vivocity. Ended up, she went movie with her husband and the rest of us went to Suntec to walk walk. Although now is GSS, nothing much caught my eye. Didn't shop for much things. Just bought some facial products and headed over to Marina Square to walk a little then for dinner.

Ate at the foodcourt and chit chat a bit. Chuanwei got to go back to rest and meet his friends for supper. The rest of us, went over to NewYorkNewYork at Citylink to have waffle icecream. Yummy!

Took some pics there. Dun have me inside cos I was the one taking snapshots. Took a lot of Collin, calling her "Min Min". Hehe... She is going to hate me for this... dun care. :P Here are the cute pics of my dear "Min Min".

hehe... one pic of my dear Fiona... :)

Looking forward to Weekend! Dearie is booking out of camp and I get to see him. Happy... Have been busy at work. Boss is not around and I have to cover several things. Time is never enough to use. I have yet to come up with some reports and things are piling in. It's neverending story... I feel like taking a break. So so tired... Yawn... Worked till almost 12am just now. I was the last one to leave office. Kinda scary especially with the renovation going on. Wanted to pass a colleague something tomorrow but ended I bought it home. Blur Sotong. Sianz...

Woke up at 9+ today. Didn't go in to office as I had to attend a Open Forum with our Group Director at Singapore Island Country Club. My boss couldn't make it and I was sent to attend as a representative of HR. Started to rain heavily when I was about to step out of my house. As the place is not very accessible, I decided that I would drive to the destination.

Went over to the carpark. As I started the engine and was removing pamphlet from the windscreen and waiting for the engine to heat up, a car drove past and and parked a few lots down near to my car. The driver was looking at me and was smiling. I thought he might be a neighbour of mine or my brother's friend and so out of courtesy, I smiled back. The guy finished parking his car and walked towards me. He passed me a slip of paper with his number on it and started to introduce himself to me, asking if he could get to know me and be friends. I was quite taken aback as I have never encounter this before. Furthermore, I was in a rush and have to drive off ASAP in case there is any traffic jam due to the rain. He was asking for my number and I didn't want to give him my HP number. I just took my name card and passed it to him and politely said I have to rush off to an urgent meeting.

I msg Dearie and let him know what I came across. I just found it so weird and strange that someone would approach me at the carpark and asked to know me. I was thinking that this person might have ulterior motive and found it scary! I know this kind of thing happens everywhere and almost everyday. I used to hear it from my girlfriends but to have it happening to me, it just feel so strange and funny!

My meeting ends around 1.40pm and after our lunch, I only managed to reach office around 3.45pm. Only left a few hours before the day is over. Was rushing here and there, wiping my table due to the dust from renovation. My skin was itchy and there were so many work to be done. Was busy doing and sorting out my stuff while I had to answer incoming calls. Guess what... the guy whom I met at the carpark called me! Faint... I never expect him to be calling me. Told him that it was a bad time as I just reached my office and got lots to rush and do. He attempted to get my HP number once again but I told him to email me instead. Told him I was quite taken aback and didn't really know how to react at that moment of time. Guess he gotten my hint and although he said ok to emailing me, I doubt he will do that.

Not that I am reluctant to make friends but this kind of encounter hardly occurs around me and this was my first time. I guess the guy must have mustered a lot of courage to do that as he seemed pai seh when approaching me. Well, I could just say he caught me at the wrong timing, wrong place and at my wrong state of mind. I was rushing for meeting and did not have any intention to know a new friend in carpark. I was busy clearing and sorting out my work and was not willing to talk much, especially to someone whom I do not know at all! Just felt weird. When I reached home and was parking the car, I noticed that the guy had parked his car since morning and it was not shifted at all. Left me wondering and curious. This guy no work ah? So free to be able to call me etc. Strange strange strange... Dearie said it's not safe for me to be at carpark alone. Asking if mum and bro were home...

Dearie not around me... such a weird and strange thing happen. Hope I won't meet this guy again or I dunno how I should be reacting liao...

Have yet to close my eyes for sleep. Slept late last night and only woke up at almost 1pm. Didn't do much today. Was with Dearie at his place, playing with my laptop while he studied for his exams. Mood didn't seem to get better till much much later... only when Dearie was talking to me on the phone before he drifted off to his dreamland once again.

He didn't know what was wrong with me and told me that he was worried on how come I didn't talk much and didn't laugh much? Said he purposely fetched me from my place to his and it's definitely not to see me pulling a long face in front of him. Haiz... I also dunno how to explain to him. Told him I really had no idea what is coming over me and I can't explain the behaviour as well. Dearie asked if I am contemplating on changing my mind on us. Tears started to flow out. I never have that kind of idea and it didn't even come across my mind. He said he just want to re-affirm that and he doesn't want to be unprepared should things start to change.

Upset that he asked me that question. Said I made him worried and stressed and would affect his studies. That would be the last that I would ever want to do to him. I would want him to do well for his exams and in his career as well. Both of us are working hard in our area of expertises, taking the big step in a few months' time. It's just saddening to hear him asking me that although he meant no harm. Guess sometimes Dearie just doesn't know how to show his love for me and made me feel that he is not sensitive towards my feelings at all.

Dearie woke up earlier than me and sayang me when I was sleeping. I like that kind of feeling, to be pampered and loved. He woke up and studied while I was sleeping on his bed, tossing and turning around. He let me have the fan so that I will not feel hot while he was perspiring. I know Dearie treats me well but sometimes, I just want him to show it and do it. Probably as stress level builds up, these things are not done as often and I am feeling neglected. At times, I would feel that I love him more than he loves me. I am not shy to hold his hand and snuggle close to him in public. He does it but those occurrences are getting lesser at times. Maybe I am just greedy and want him to pamper me and shower me with more love. Maybe I am just a woman who needs attention and he is not giving me many as other things start to occupy his time. Having to juggle work and studies are not easy tasks. Plus me in... Not saying I am difficult to please but sometimes, just a little action from him to let me know he loves me, will make me happy the whole day. I am easily contented and pleased. I never intend to make things difficult. Just wish that Dearie could just get closer to me each day when I am just so close to him...

I dunno what is happening to me. Feeling moody out of the sudden. Nothing to explain why and how come I got this kind of feeling. Has been like this for the past few days. Dearie was in reservist and before he sleeps, he would give me a call and talk to me a while to see how was my day, how I am, etc. I wasn't in the right mood to talk to him for the past few days. Not too sure is it because of the lack of sleep or because I was sick for the past few days as well. I am feeling lost. Not sleeping at this hour while Dearie has fallen into his slumberland.

He did not sense anything different abt me today. Am I a good pretender that nothing could be sensed? There wasn't much conversation and laughter from me as well. Dearie did not notice it at all. Probably he is tired from the reservist, tired from worrying abt his work, tired from preparing for his exams... I am tired also. Tired of feeling moody, tired from work & office packing due to renovation, tired from having to ward off those irritating people, tired of everything.

What is wrong with me? Why do I feel like tearing right now? I have got no idea what is coming over me. Am I going crazy or am I thinking and feeling too much? I am definitely not the usual chirpy self. Where has my cheerfulness gone to? Can someone tell me why am I feeling this way now?

I dislike the way I am now. Hate the feelings. No mood for anything, no appetite for food... Complete lost... Wandering Soul at the weird hours of the night... No one will understand what I am feeling now... no one at all...

Hilow... yes, I am back again after "disappearing" away from my blog for so so long. As usual, being busy with work and simply has no time for blogging. it has been work work work and play play play to relax the tiny brains of mine. Dearie is going away on reservist tomorrow for 2 weeks and afterwhich, preparations for his exams. He has been a busy man as well. only managed to meet me one time on Monday, accompanying me to see doctor. the rest of his week is to work work work and to rush out those things before he goes for his reservist.

Sometimes it really makes me wonder if it's worthwhile to work so hard. some people could just spend their whole life working hard and end up, achieving nothing much. some just sit and do nothing and things just come to them "naturally". Life is really unfair at times but I still believe the earth is round. what comes around goes around... this is very true no matter what religion you are in. there is always KARMA in whatever you do. although I am a free-thinker, I strongly believe in this. so, better be good and just try to do our best.

Have been on training for 1.5 days this week. things happened in office during my boss and my absence that set my blood boiling. I was complaining away to Dearie over the phone. some people did the wrong things and still do not want to admit. Still attempt to cover up when it's a stupid and silly lie. I really look down on this kind of people. Cannot tahan them! I kept my boss informed although she is having her own training in Hong Kong. felt bad that this time round, I have to bother her on a few matters. normally I will try my very best to settle things within my capabilities but this time round, some people are just getting out of control and no matter what, I couldn't help but to sms and email my boss. She will be back on Wed and we will have to sort it out with the parties involved. a storm is to come and I have faith in victory as my boss will standby me. :)

Spending my past 3 days with Dearie. did nothing much. eat, sleep, play games, eat and sleep. I am becoming a pig! hehe... Dearie's mum cooked my favourite dish yesterday. yummy lor! I told her it was nice and was asking her how she cooked it so I could get my mum to cook. She remembered and cooked for me to eat yesterday. Dearie was commenting where to find a mother-in-law who will cook your favourite dish for you to eat. I just smiled away and happily savoured on the food. hehe... I know his mum is good to me and always happy to see me and share things with me. I am glad that I got to know her and soon, will be a family with her. Looking forward to that day! hehe...

Gotten a new gadget yesterday. Hehe... loving it and using it now. Have been looking around for quite some time and decided on getting it. Quite a good deal with freebies being thrown in. Looking cool and sweet and pinkish! Nice nice and sweet... Loving it. hehe... :P

Sweet looking ya? Still got free skin for me to go pick up! This sweetie has been upgraded to 3gb ram and also extended warranty for 1 more year FOC! WAhahah... running fast and good. happy!!

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