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Feeling Moody...
Sunday, May 25, 2008 @ at 3:44 AM

I dunno what is happening to me. Feeling moody out of the sudden. Nothing to explain why and how come I got this kind of feeling. Has been like this for the past few days. Dearie was in reservist and before he sleeps, he would give me a call and talk to me a while to see how was my day, how I am, etc. I wasn't in the right mood to talk to him for the past few days. Not too sure is it because of the lack of sleep or because I was sick for the past few days as well. I am feeling lost. Not sleeping at this hour while Dearie has fallen into his slumberland.

He did not sense anything different abt me today. Am I a good pretender that nothing could be sensed? There wasn't much conversation and laughter from me as well. Dearie did not notice it at all. Probably he is tired from the reservist, tired from worrying abt his work, tired from preparing for his exams... I am tired also. Tired of feeling moody, tired from work & office packing due to renovation, tired from having to ward off those irritating people, tired of everything.

What is wrong with me? Why do I feel like tearing right now? I have got no idea what is coming over me. Am I going crazy or am I thinking and feeling too much? I am definitely not the usual chirpy self. Where has my cheerfulness gone to? Can someone tell me why am I feeling this way now?

I dislike the way I am now. Hate the feelings. No mood for anything, no appetite for food... Complete lost... Wandering Soul at the weird hours of the night... No one will understand what I am feeling now... no one at all...