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DAMN UPSET AND PISSED
Friday, February 19, 2010 @ at 1:36 AM

UR WORDS HURT ME AND MADE ME DAMN UPSET AND PISSED.

TO U, I AM THE ONE BEING UNREASONABLE AND HAVE MISINTERPRETED UR INTENTIONS.

TO U, I AM THE ONE WHO KEEP INSISTING THAT I AM RIGHT AND U ARE WRONG.

TO U, I AM HAPPY TO HAVE YOU APOLOGISING FOR THOSE THINGS WHICH I THINK U HAVE DONE WRONG.

TO U, I LIKE TO CRY OVER EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING.

BUT HAVE U EVER THINK OF THESE???

I AM NOT A SICKO AND I DO NOT ENJOY HAVING U TO APOLOGISE. WHY IS THERE A NEED FOR APOLOGIES IF NOTHING HAS GONE WRONG IN THE FIRST PLACE?

I DO NOT INTEND TO MISINTERPRET UR INTENTIONS BUT THE WAY U PUT ACROSS TO ME… MADE ME INEVITABLY LINK 1 AND 1 TOGETHER. ANYONE IN MY SHOES WILL THINK THE SAME WAY TOO!

I DARE TO ADMIT WHEN I AM IN THE WRONG AND I WILL NOT KEEP INSISTING THAT I AM RIGHT. I AM NOT UNREASONABLE AND IF U CAN JUSTIFY, I WONT EVEN BOTHER TO CONTINUE TO ‘ARGUE’ WITH U.

YOU JUST ‘CONVENIENTLY’ HURT ME WITH THOSE WORDS OF YOURS, EVEN AS MUCH AS I TRY TO TELL U HOW I FEEL, U JUST KEEP SAYING I INSIST I AM RIGHT. THEN WHAT IS THE POINT OF ASKING ME TO TELL U HOW I FEEL AND WHAT HAPPENED?

I DO NOT LIKE TO CRY AT ALL. WHY WOULD I WANT TO MAKE MYSELF APPEAR WITH SWOLLEN EYES, BLOCKED NOSE, WET FACE? I HAVE DIFFICULTIES BREATHING WHEN I CRY TOO MUCH AND THAT IS DEFINITELY NOT A GOOD SIGN WHEN I HAVE THE RISK OF BEING SUFFOCATED.

SILENCE IS GOLDEN… PERHAPS I SHOULD JUST KEEP MUM, STAY QUIET AND DUN CARE ABT ANYTHING. BUT I AM NOT A PUPPY AT UR BECK AND CALL AND I AM NOT UR MAID OR SERVANT WHO WILL JUST SAY YES TO ALL U SAY. IF U EXPECT ME TO BE TAT, THEN U GOT URSELF A WRONG PARTNER, A WRONG WIFE.

U ARE MAKING ME FEEL UNLOVED, UNWANTED AND SOMEONE WHOM U ARE NOT PROUD OF.

I AM WRONG IN WANTING TO GO OVER TO UR PLACE.

I AM WRONG IN WANTING TO SPEND TIME WITH U.

I AM WRONG IN MAKING EFFORTS.

I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY OR DO. IT’S SO PAIN AND HURTFUL… IT REALLY IS. I HATE THIS FEELING. I SUPER HATE IT!!!